Some things i'll never know.
I'm totally, absolutely, confusingly surpised...most of the time.
&& i have to let them go.
This isn't what you wanted. Is it?
The clock is still ticking, but i still have all the time i need.
Maybe...just maybe.
This is the fight i am winning.
Ohmygoshforgettingmyselfintoemberassingmoments. Haha!
Hmm.
It's the karma you're feeling and eating you alive. Deal with it.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Reflections.
I used to see and think some certain things differently, but these past 6 days that i've been sick, i've been doing a lot of thinking about...pretty much about everything that has been around me in my life.
I've learned a lot...surpisingly i didn't have to get out of the house to learn this much haha.
I've learned that i can't be always senstive towards others. If they're not bothered or not know that they're doing an action that is hurting me, i shouldn't bother to care either. Let them be. They'll come around, eventually or if not, just till let them be and treat them just as if nothing ever happened. I still have no regrets. I've said my many sorries and i tried the best i could, but it's up to them now.
I've learned that we all have our 'the world is going to end OMG! time' and that we feel like loners and no one loves us. That's a lie! That we tell to ourselves when we 'think' that we are falling apart. If something bad happens we'll move on, we all know we do.
What about close friends, friends...whatever the hack you call them. There are friends everywhere, they come and go, the feeling is pretty much mutual. Everyone is our friend! You don't need to trust everyone. I don't trust anyone. Shit happens when you trust therefore, i'm not trusting anyone as much as i trust my family.! I know that my family loves me more than anyone in the world. That's it. Friends are the to have fun and good times with. Leave the drama out and just chillax! :D
Boys...boys...oh haha! Who needs them? Pft. -puts on attitude mode- haha! No seriously, any girl that says 'I don't need a man' is a liar. I mean...okay we don't need men, ALWAYS. But there comes a time where we would like to be with someone and share silly/cute things with them. But...GROW UP! Don't go out and look for love. Let love come to you! Don't be silly! And yes all this applies to me.
I vow to myself and to all you readers that i will read this blog post whenever i'll feel like shit and when i finish i'll laugh and feel proud of myself.
I'm very much single and very MUCH happy about it and honestly, i don't care...as of now. I'm focusing on my career right now, i need the grades, i'm studying hard to get great grades so right now, i might not want to feel the pressure of commitment. But who knows what is going to happen in 5 minutes...? in 5 days? in 5 years? No one, just God. :).
When the time comes for me i am hoping to find someone who will understand me and likes me for who i am...also someone who i feel 100% comfortable with. I don't like playing with other peoples' hearts. I want to be loyal with myself and everyone.
Last but not least! God :)
He never changes.
He always forgives me.
I know for a fact that he will always love me.
I know that sometimes i don't feel him close to me, but i know that he's the only person that is better, marvelous in any way, even better than my own parents/family and i know that i can trust him and that he can always have his way with me.
Okay, ramblings over, dear you.
Till then, now i'm going to pull up my socks and get back to school and assignments XD
It's a long way to go ;)
Spring...then Summer! Oh, looking forward to that! ^_^
S.
xoxo
I've learned a lot...surpisingly i didn't have to get out of the house to learn this much haha.
I've learned that i can't be always senstive towards others. If they're not bothered or not know that they're doing an action that is hurting me, i shouldn't bother to care either. Let them be. They'll come around, eventually or if not, just till let them be and treat them just as if nothing ever happened. I still have no regrets. I've said my many sorries and i tried the best i could, but it's up to them now.
I've learned that we all have our 'the world is going to end OMG! time' and that we feel like loners and no one loves us. That's a lie! That we tell to ourselves when we 'think' that we are falling apart. If something bad happens we'll move on, we all know we do.
What about close friends, friends...whatever the hack you call them. There are friends everywhere, they come and go, the feeling is pretty much mutual. Everyone is our friend! You don't need to trust everyone. I don't trust anyone. Shit happens when you trust therefore, i'm not trusting anyone as much as i trust my family.! I know that my family loves me more than anyone in the world. That's it. Friends are the to have fun and good times with. Leave the drama out and just chillax! :D
Boys...boys...oh haha! Who needs them? Pft. -puts on attitude mode- haha! No seriously, any girl that says 'I don't need a man' is a liar. I mean...okay we don't need men, ALWAYS. But there comes a time where we would like to be with someone and share silly/cute things with them. But...GROW UP! Don't go out and look for love. Let love come to you! Don't be silly! And yes all this applies to me.
I vow to myself and to all you readers that i will read this blog post whenever i'll feel like shit and when i finish i'll laugh and feel proud of myself.
I'm very much single and very MUCH happy about it and honestly, i don't care...as of now. I'm focusing on my career right now, i need the grades, i'm studying hard to get great grades so right now, i might not want to feel the pressure of commitment. But who knows what is going to happen in 5 minutes...? in 5 days? in 5 years? No one, just God. :).
When the time comes for me i am hoping to find someone who will understand me and likes me for who i am...also someone who i feel 100% comfortable with. I don't like playing with other peoples' hearts. I want to be loyal with myself and everyone.
Last but not least! God :)
He never changes.
He always forgives me.
I know for a fact that he will always love me.
I know that sometimes i don't feel him close to me, but i know that he's the only person that is better, marvelous in any way, even better than my own parents/family and i know that i can trust him and that he can always have his way with me.
Okay, ramblings over, dear you.
Till then, now i'm going to pull up my socks and get back to school and assignments XD
It's a long way to go ;)
Spring...then Summer! Oh, looking forward to that! ^_^
S.
xoxo
Monday, March 2, 2009
Paradise.
When i googled that word...this caught my attention:
Yes, i want to be in Paradise. Wherever it is, i wanna be there.
Close your eyes and imagine just like what i am seeing;
Peace, love, waterfalls, the trees, fresh air, warmth, calm, happyness.
It will be the best getaway ever.
But unfortunatly that can (probably) never happen unless you die and go to Heaven. There yes, you will find Paradise.
On another note:
Ciaooo.
S.
Yes, i want to be in Paradise. Wherever it is, i wanna be there.
Close your eyes and imagine just like what i am seeing;
Peace, love, waterfalls, the trees, fresh air, warmth, calm, happyness.
It will be the best getaway ever.
But unfortunatly that can (probably) never happen unless you die and go to Heaven. There yes, you will find Paradise.
On another note:
+
Ciaooo.
S.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
It's been a while.
Dear you,
I still feel sort of the same.
Some things never change and some people either.
There is always the good and the bad things in life.
I just know who are my real friends.
They might be a few but i know who they are and i thank God for them. =)
Thank you, God.
I still believe in You, in whatever You do.
You're just amazing.
Other than that; i don't care anymore. I only want to be happy.
Are you willing to make me happy? If not, don't even look at me.
PS: Jealousy sucksssssssss. I pity you.
PSS: I'm so sick, Ew. :(
S.
I still feel sort of the same.
Some things never change and some people either.
There is always the good and the bad things in life.
I just know who are my real friends.
They might be a few but i know who they are and i thank God for them. =)
Thank you, God.
I still believe in You, in whatever You do.
You're just amazing.
Other than that; i don't care anymore. I only want to be happy.
Are you willing to make me happy? If not, don't even look at me.
PS: Jealousy sucksssssssss. I pity you.
PSS: I'm so sick, Ew. :(
S.
Friday, February 13, 2009
The Boredom Cliche.
The more i think, the more confused i get & i really hate it.
You only live once.
^ that's the statment i would like to register in my mind and keep it as my motto and apply it to my everything.
I admit, i want to find the excitment in life, because lately i haven't been feeling it...
...no wait, only one person made me feel that way and it was God.
Call me religious or whatever word you'd like to call me, still, i don't care.
Still. I'd like an adventure. You know...the fairytale thing.
No, no, not involving the subject of: Love.
I am not ready for that. Now i know.
I don't want to think about it, at the moment.
I want to be someday and i know i will be.
I just want something to look forward, school is one of them...my career, i just need something else. It could be anything, it could be love, but lately, i doubt it and i want to make myself think that way as of now.
I want a world full of happyness, not jealousy.
I hate, hate, hate jealousy.
If you think you're with God and you're a jealous person, think again. Think harder.
I admit, i used to get a little jealous over silly things, but now, not anymore.
I just want to make sure what i want from life and appriciate whatever God planned for me. Life is about the ups and downs, we all get them. No one is truely happy all the time. Face it; Stop being jealous and get a life.
Do you feel depressd? Unhappy? Uncertain?
Find someone to talk to, it could be your friend or even God! Let him in!
Don't be stupid, let him help you.
If you want to do something, go out and do it. (A good thing eh.)
Also, dear reader, never give up.
Don't waste your breath on some people, or caring about them, it's just not worth it.
But...
...always fight for whatever you think is best for you.
xoxo
S.
You only live once.
^ that's the statment i would like to register in my mind and keep it as my motto and apply it to my everything.
I admit, i want to find the excitment in life, because lately i haven't been feeling it...
...no wait, only one person made me feel that way and it was God.
Call me religious or whatever word you'd like to call me, still, i don't care.
Still. I'd like an adventure. You know...the fairytale thing.
No, no, not involving the subject of: Love.
I am not ready for that. Now i know.
I don't want to think about it, at the moment.
I want to be someday and i know i will be.
I just want something to look forward, school is one of them...my career, i just need something else. It could be anything, it could be love, but lately, i doubt it and i want to make myself think that way as of now.
I want a world full of happyness, not jealousy.
I hate, hate, hate jealousy.
If you think you're with God and you're a jealous person, think again. Think harder.
I admit, i used to get a little jealous over silly things, but now, not anymore.
I just want to make sure what i want from life and appriciate whatever God planned for me. Life is about the ups and downs, we all get them. No one is truely happy all the time. Face it; Stop being jealous and get a life.
Do you feel depressd? Unhappy? Uncertain?
Find someone to talk to, it could be your friend or even God! Let him in!
Don't be stupid, let him help you.
If you want to do something, go out and do it. (A good thing eh.)
Also, dear reader, never give up.
Don't waste your breath on some people, or caring about them, it's just not worth it.
But...
...always fight for whatever you think is best for you.
xoxo
S.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
The Truth.
Dear you,
This is The Change in me.
I might not be too cool for you just because i am a believer.
I might be everything you didn't expect me to be because i am a believer.
Past experiences are making me stronger and knowing much more about myself.
I am growing into myself.
I am knowing what i want and what i believe in.
God is simply amazing.
God is love.
God is in me.
I can't explain so much about this...but, he is the best. The best friend.
My bestfriend is not my mother or my friends...no, it's Him. Always was and always will be.
I don't care whatever you say.
This is me.
Deal with it.
Love,
S.
This is The Change in me.
I might not be too cool for you just because i am a believer.
I might be everything you didn't expect me to be because i am a believer.
Past experiences are making me stronger and knowing much more about myself.
I am growing into myself.
I am knowing what i want and what i believe in.
God is simply amazing.
God is love.
God is in me.
I can't explain so much about this...but, he is the best. The best friend.
My bestfriend is not my mother or my friends...no, it's Him. Always was and always will be.
I don't care whatever you say.
This is me.
Deal with it.
Love,
S.
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