It's been a while.

Dear you,

I still feel sort of the same.
Some things never change and some people either.
There is always the good and the bad things in life.

I just know who are my real friends.
They might be a few but i know who they are and i thank God for them. =)

Thank you, God.
I still believe in You, in whatever You do.
You're just amazing.

Other than that; i don't care anymore. I only want to be happy.
Are you willing to make me happy? If not, don't even look at me.

PS: Jealousy sucksssssssss. I pity you.

PSS: I'm so sick, Ew. :(

S.

The Boredom Cliche.

The more i think, the more confused i get & i really hate it.

You only live once.
^ that's the statment i would like to register in my mind and keep it as my motto and apply it to my everything.

I admit, i want to find the excitment in life, because lately i haven't been feeling it...
...no wait, only one person made me feel that way and it was God.
Call me religious or whatever word you'd like to call me, still, i don't care.

Still. I'd like an adventure. You know...the fairytale thing.
No, no, not involving the subject of: Love.
I am not ready for that. Now i know.
I don't want to think about it, at the moment.
I want to be someday and i know i will be.

I just want something to look forward, school is one of them...my career, i just need something else. It could be anything, it could be love, but lately, i doubt it and i want to make myself think that way as of now.

I want a world full of happyness, not jealousy.
I hate, hate, hate jealousy.
If you think you're with God and you're a jealous person, think again. Think harder.
I admit, i used to get a little jealous over silly things, but now, not anymore.

I just want to make sure what i want from life and appriciate whatever God planned for me. Life is about the ups and downs, we all get them. No one is truely happy all the time. Face it; Stop being jealous and get a life.

Do you feel depressd? Unhappy? Uncertain?
Find someone to talk to, it could be your friend or even God! Let him in!
Don't be stupid, let him help you.

If you want to do something, go out and do it. (A good thing eh.)

Also, dear reader, never give up.

Don't waste your breath on some people, or caring about them, it's just not worth it.
But...
...always fight for whatever you think is best for you.

xoxo
S.

The Life.

I really need assistance to this thing.

The Truth.

Dear you,

This is The Change in me.

I might not be too cool for you just because i am a believer.
I might be everything you didn't expect me to be because i am a believer.

Past experiences are making me stronger and knowing much more about myself.
I am growing into myself.
I am knowing what i want and what i believe in.

God is simply amazing.
God is love.
God is in me.
I can't explain so much about this...but, he is the best. The best friend.
My bestfriend is not my mother or my friends...no, it's Him. Always was and always will be.

I don't care whatever you say.
This is me.
Deal with it.

Love,

S.

I love Jim Morrison.

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”


This is exactly how i feel.

The Urges.

This is a pure, so true, so amazing; fact.

I'm writing too much and rambling in my writing that, i just can't stop.

Writing keeps me going.

Keeps my mind active and when i write, i might feel brave.

Writing is the getaway...

...the getaway when i'm feeling stressed out and a little bit insecure.

I don't know, it calms me too.

This is me.

...the clock is ticking...

tick tock

Do something idiot.

tick tock

No i mean it.

tick tock

Baby, it's only your loss.

you know you love me,

xoxo S.

Open Happiness.

It's so overwhelming and terrifying.
The mad ones are not the ones who are mad to love, they are the ones who are mad to be loved.

Sometimes...someday, one day.
Bliss. Pure Bliss.
The heart is flying, flying solo, it's open, sometimes...sometimes it's closed.

Yet, it is still overwhelming and terrifying.
What's going on? How? What? Seriously? Oh my.

Most of us are so blinded with everything that goes around us that, most of us;
forget who we were.
from where do we come from.
forget their limits.
All this materialisim makes you so blind...you cannot see, so you crave for more.

The good and the bad memories are there to remind you who you are not to hurt you or make you miss them. They've built you up. You are part of them. You are them.


xoxo Steph.