Pilgrimage of Hope - Rome 2010

Most people have been wondering what i have been up to on my Facebook account, posting picture of Rome and talking about this Pilgrimage of Hope. Well, keep on reading and you'll know all about my amazing adventure of a week at the last week of July.

Every day when I used to wake up, and always ask myself ‘what’s next today?’ Every day was so full of surprises, I was always thrilled to know and discover.

During that week, I honestly felt much closer to God. There was no one rushing me to do anything, I felt at ease most of the time unlike in my daily routine. I felt that some personal moments in my life were falling to place, like I was really destined to be with all the youths from different European countries no matter the language everybody spoke. We all had one passion and goal to learn, pray and discover. We were one big Carmelite family.

It was also interesting to learn more about the Carmelites as I never really knew or studied anything about them. Now that I had the opportunity to know more about the Carmelites; how they started, the Rule etc. I feel much more included in this community that I was part of for many years.

I also can never forget all of the people that I have met during this pilgrimage. Fernando Millan Romeral, the Prior General and also Fr John Keating, the best Carmelite leaders in which I can really look up to. They could always interact very well with all of the youths present.

Before going to Rome we were told that we might not see the Pope but on the last day of the Pilgrimage we had the phenomenal experience to meet him at Castel Gandolfo and pray with him.

I will never ever forget either the other youths that I have met from different European countries. I’ve gotten to know a little bit about their culture and their work back home as a Carmelite youth. I loved the fact that we always worked as a team. I never felt that I was alone.

Lastly, I will always be grateful to the Prior Provincial Fr Michael Farrugia O.Carm and Fr Joe Saliba O.Carm for giving me this wonderful opportunity and such amazing experience that I will never ever forget.

Up next - World Youth Day - Madrid 2011. I'm already excited. Trust me, it is a cool thing. Really.

Live in the moment of silence;
obey, help & trust in the Lord,
with a pure and honest heart.

Smile like you mean it.

It’s easy to say that you’re happy. We all know that words are way too far from the truth and can manipulate how we actually feel. If you’re always optimistic in life, you will go on as long as you want to. Don’t cry over yourself or lie to make yourself look better with pathetic words. Be ambitious, be whoever you want to be, even if you will get more enemies than friends in return. Who cares, honestly? You’d rather have just one friend rather than a lot of ‘friends’ who’s their everyday plan is how to screw you over.

Get a grip.

Keep your eyes wide open.

Good Byes? Who needs them?
Well, there comes a time where have to say ‘good bye’. There the hard way and the well…better way. I think goodbyes are much more effective than saying hello. Goodbye means you’re starting over or you’re moving on to the next big thing in your life. Don’t be so scared. It’s the end of the world. Do what you have to do even if you shed a tear or two. In time when you’re looking back you’ll say, ‘it was so worth it’.

Maybe yesterday you weren’t so happy, but today you stopped being so mystified about everything that has been going on and you finally decided. Oh the joy of that smile that’s shinning and hurting everyone’s eyes!

Summer 2010.

&& It's another summer!
It's funny because I still remember last summer as if it all happened yesterday.

&&& I feel like the world is awakening...
...waking up to the light.

Once a dreamer, always a dreamer.
Mystified? at best.

Dream and live till your very last moment in time.
Whisper...
...they can't hear you. (:

Close your eyes with me and just picture the night. no not the day, the night. It's so beautiful. Come on, let's go down to the beach, drink some wine. Mmm. I'm already tasting the sweetness in my mouth. Now, let's take a walk. The water is hitting our feet. Brr. It's cold! But so worth it ;).

Sleep + A little bit of Relaxation + Great Nights = Summer.
I want to. I have to. I got to.

courage.passion.hard work.

It's been a while since my last blog, my apologies dear reader.

But i can tell you how has my life been going.

I grew older, i feel much more happier, i got busy-ier, oh and my nails are growing too! =D

Life is like a rollercoaster ride; it's scary, exciting, mind blowing.

Criminal Minds & Doctor Who are still the most amazing shows on earth. They always leave you hanging after each episode and you just crave for more and yes, you hate waiting. Then again, I always wonder when and how they're going to end. The feelings of the everyday life sort of, isn't it?

There are a lot of people who call you by your name.
But there is only one person who can make it sound so damn special.

I am who i am today is because of the choices i made yesterday.

I don't blame you for being you.

You like being in control of every situation possible. You strive for it if you're not. You want to be noticed, in fact you are, you're just not appriciated enough. Contol and apprication are two different emotions yet we combine them together. They clash, they can never be in the same sentence, even.

Control is the ability to have power. Ah, yes, power. Power is important to you sometimes it's much more important than control, it's as if you're going to use it to save the world, but really, you only need it to save you and your feelings.


Carefree, they're those people who does not care what goes on around them. Free mind and spirit. They are fearless. Their eyes are happy, sometimes emotionless but somewhat still content. They are in control of some certain situations, still. Everyone has that ability in them, that's why there's limts. Sometimes they think, but not too much. They don't hold on or fight to win, they let go. They jump, leap, they are the peaceful ones. Their life is not a blur, they sleep at night while you are still thinking how to win over.

In the end, they don't care about your power or control and only care how to free their mind and heart; no bruises. Just memories. Maybe.


They don't want to want.
They don't need to need.

You should try it, you'll feel much better. Still, i really don't blame you for being you. You should never ever lose hope, you'll end up the biggest loser.

You read my mind, i appricate you, but that does not mean you have any control over me.

Second Month of the New Year.

So far, so good.

It's been too long again dear you,

I've been lacking the creativity, or maybe not; just not having the time.

But today, i needed to vent, so i did.

Sometimes I really get the urge to scream.
I scream in the inside a lot of times. Out of frustration, out of happiness.

This life is too exciting, yet too risky business.

Every year, every month, every day, every second, something happens for a reason.
I don’t think so,

I just think that you just create and control your own reality.

You’re on a bus thinking about how you got here. Then you’re at home in your room sitting quietly staring at nothing-ness thinking the same thing you were thinking this morning. How the hell did you get here?

You need so much and when you have it you just want to lose it and forget it. You always remember but you still risk it.

No matter what, you know you live in misery business. (Sometimes atleast.)

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010.

I simply still cannot believe that i'm staring a New Year.
I have no idea why i feel so surprised.

2009 was a one hell of a year, yet it was still nice.

I have no resolutions. I think they're pointless and if i make one, i know that i will just let myself down.

I'm hoping that 2010 will be a better year for me, then again, i always say this when a new year comes.

I think this year, i'm just going to sit, be calm, relaxed and whatever happens, just happens.

Life is full of surprises. This year won't be any different.

Happy New Year dear reader.