Reflections.

I used to see and think some certain things differently, but these past 6 days that i've been sick, i've been doing a lot of thinking about...pretty much about everything that has been around me in my life.

I've learned a lot...surpisingly i didn't have to get out of the house to learn this much haha.

I've learned that i can't be always senstive towards others. If they're not bothered or not know that they're doing an action that is hurting me, i shouldn't bother to care either. Let them be. They'll come around, eventually or if not, just till let them be and treat them just as if nothing ever happened. I still have no regrets. I've said my many sorries and i tried the best i could, but it's up to them now.

I've learned that we all have our 'the world is going to end OMG! time' and that we feel like loners and no one loves us. That's a lie! That we tell to ourselves when we 'think' that we are falling apart. If something bad happens we'll move on, we all know we do.

What about close friends, friends...whatever the hack you call them. There are friends everywhere, they come and go, the feeling is pretty much mutual. Everyone is our friend! You don't need to trust everyone. I don't trust anyone. Shit happens when you trust therefore, i'm not trusting anyone as much as i trust my family.! I know that my family loves me more than anyone in the world. That's it. Friends are the to have fun and good times with. Leave the drama out and just chillax! :D

Boys...boys...oh haha! Who needs them? Pft. -puts on attitude mode- haha! No seriously, any girl that says 'I don't need a man' is a liar. I mean...okay we don't need men, ALWAYS. But there comes a time where we would like to be with someone and share silly/cute things with them. But...GROW UP! Don't go out and look for love. Let love come to you! Don't be silly! And yes all this applies to me.
I vow to myself and to all you readers that i will read this blog post whenever i'll feel like shit and when i finish i'll laugh and feel proud of myself.
I'm very much single and very MUCH happy about it and honestly, i don't care...as of now. I'm focusing on my career right now, i need the grades, i'm studying hard to get great grades so right now, i might not want to feel the pressure of commitment. But who knows what is going to happen in 5 minutes...? in 5 days? in 5 years? No one, just God. :).
When the time comes for me i am hoping to find someone who will understand me and likes me for who i am...also someone who i feel 100% comfortable with. I don't like playing with other peoples' hearts. I want to be loyal with myself and everyone.

Last but not least! God :)

He never changes.
He always forgives me.
I know for a fact that he will always love me.
I know that sometimes i don't feel him close to me, but i know that he's the only person that is better, marvelous in any way, even better than my own parents/family and i know that i can trust him and that he can always have his way with me.

Okay, ramblings over, dear you.

Till then, now i'm going to pull up my socks and get back to school and assignments XD
It's a long way to go ;)
Spring...then Summer! Oh, looking forward to that! ^_^

S.
xoxo