The Ones Who Are Mad To Live.

11:11. hello kitty. bookworm. science. sociology. music. late night movies. television series. daydream. faith. hope. psychology. Las Vegas. California. New York. LA. Brendon Urie. Panic at the disco. Eyeliner. Mascara. Blusher. Jewelry. Friends all over the country. Razia's Shadow. Punk. RedBull. Vodka. Malibu. Black. White. Violet. Purple. Vampires. Texting. Chatting. Browsing. Proving you wrong. Challangening. Smiling. Fashion. Retro. Vintage. Smart boys who dress in suits. Hugs. Neck kissing. Single. Love is overrated for now. Happy. Independent. Quiet. Shy at first. Joy. Sensitivity. Spiderman. Badges. Bags. E!News. MTV. Myspace. Modelling. Cuddling. Promises. Promise rings and keychains. Cupcakes. Chocolates. Kinder. Sunsets. Cold weather. Paris. English. Litertature. Poetry. Photography. Graphics. Picture Editing. HTML. Quotes. The 20's. MP4. Hair. Hairdye. Hairspray. Very Forgetful. Kind. Sleepyhead. Moody. Panic. Nervous. Curious. Amused easily. Blessed. Loves Attention.

This is me.

Flash News: I Am Drowning.

All I ever wanted is to be at peace.
I'm struggling, forcing myself to make you proud.
I wonder, i wonder when will be the day where i'll tell you, 'i can't do this anymore.'
Famous last words.

This is hard. Hard to let go and hard to achieve.
I am going to do my best. Oh yes, i promise. I'll try.

And you, stop distracting me before i will tell myself once again, 'I am drowning.'
Then i'll toodle to bed and cry myself to sleep, watching my life falling into pieces and the dreams i once had will start to fade away. Why? Because i wasn't strong enough to save myself and believe in myself.

Dear God, I need help.
I need to stop making mistakes and focus.

idontwanttoloseit.

Ta.
x

Just a Note.

Bid goodbye to the better part of daylight. I felt the come on coming on alright of unfaithful rays, of sad displays of independence. I've not been drinking; I've been worrying the floorboards with wandering weight with fits of figure eights. I'm only barely young; I'm old enough to repeat the same mistakes. I am all other hands those other times each anyway and then. I am so sad to say, like yesterday, a do you remember when - I am pretending otherwise lacking appeal. You never really learned to fake well what you don't feel.


I've done small things that i'm not proud of. Just remember though; i'm better than you and you know it.

Where The City Meets The Sea.

I'm quite surpised how things are turning out.
Sometimes i miss the very old days. But i can't really complain right now.
I have some awesome best friends :D

Also..

i've been seeing green.

Give me something to believe.

Cause I am living just to breathe.

I swear i never meant for this.

The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!”

Oh it's been so long.

Summer is gone, bye bye summer. I won't miss you.
...i'm lying. I will miss some parts of you.
I'm going to miss the days i spent sleeping till ten o'clock in the morning.
& sleeping late, at like three o'clock in the moring, i'm still going to sleep.
Hanging out to random places with my friends, especially the beach or the pool.

I won't miss the heat. Oh no. I hate it.
I'm ready to welcome Winter :)
I love winter <3.

Yep. yep. I do.

School started. Work started again. School, Hah. I'm not going into that yet.

I just want everything to be different.

I like change, sometimes it's good.

I hate routines, i like being different.

Let's just have the time of our lives.
<3

This is recent;

You Asked For It.

Everyone is a let down.
Depends on how far they go.

All is a lie.
Lies, lies, lies.

All wear a mask to hide whoever they are.
Truth is, they don't know either.

Uninspired. Undecided.

Trust is a big thing and as time goes by it's getting even harder for me to trust.

Nobody loves you.

Cut.Cut.Cut.


thesecret.
themission.

I do things i am not proud of.
Failure is the best option.
Getaway.

Lover i don't have to Love.

You are the least of my problems.

ashotofsteph is dead.

alongtimeagoweusedtobefriends.
ididntmissyouatall.

I just can't stop listening to The Academy Is...

4 days till my bday! xD

I had a nice day today, with some friends :)

thanks guys.

i don't know if you'll see this but yeah...