The Feeling.

I still:

like too many things and get all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop.

My life is based on true events.

I'll never miss it for the world.

I can't describe myself in just one word.

There's too many.

I'm simple yet so complex.

Flawed, crazy, lonesome, nervous all the time.

Yet, i'm still at my happiest.

That's all i ever wanted.

For now. At least i have it.

Till then,

Only God knows.

I'll never know.

You'll never know.

Anything can happen.

The idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting.

I scraped my knees while i was praying...

Hello fellow readers.

It's been too long since i last rambled on here.

Let's look at the last post, shall we?

School started and ended for me, this year.

It doesn't mean that my scholastic year is so over, no way. I like school, i like learning just not learning or be in the school or subjects i used to study about.

I don't miss my old school at all, as weird as it sounds. I like my life better now.

The lesson that i really learned from this experience is that; nothing, really nothing goes according to plan.

I highly suggest for you dear readers that if you're planning your whole life already, seriously you're wasting your time. I wasted mine and hopefully i'm done with that.

Be happy with what you have, be patient, clever and do what you think is right. Never do anything because someone told you so. It's your life, you're going to live it. Not your family, not your best friend or your boyfriend. It's all about you.

&& don't give a crap if someone tries to put you down or tries to make you feel inferior than them. That means that they feel scared shitless and much more inferior than you.

I guess that's it.

I'm happy, you're happy. =)

Take care,

xoxo S.

Brand New Eyes.

Dear You,

The last few days of Summer were the greatest, in fact they were so great that I didn't watch them go by. I had a good summer so far, a bit quiet but good.
I got mostly what i wanted from this Summer which were;
The Job, Rest & i've Experienced new things. Well we always experience new things but let's just say from my point of few, mine were a bit different. I got to know myself better; yes it might sound so lame. Get over it.

School started; finally!

It was exciting.

The classmates...well they look okay, i think?
One of them is really nice her name is Sarah. ^_^ I like it when i make new friends very easily.

I got to see last years' friends; it was a blast :D Same place, almost same clique so yeah!

Last but not least the external friends, HaHa! I mean the friends i've been with this summer, silly :P.

Audrey, which we're spending a lot more time together now, hopefully it will continue like that.
Luke, Paul, Glenn, jeez a lot more i can't think of them all! Oh and yeah last years' friends from my class.

It's really nice passing by the school hallways and wave, nod or stop to talk to some of your friends who are not in your class or you know them from somewhere.
Friends are nice and important. New friends are always welcome. =)

I think this is the sweetest note i've ever left on this blog, i mean by far...
am i right?
If not, oh well, correct me? :P

Take care dear friends & rest of the world.

xoxo
S.

No Regrets.

Why Hello there,

How are you? I hope you're feeling well as much as i do right now. Really.

The last couple of weeks have been a blast.
I've let go of myself; don't take it in the wrong way, actually it's a good thing.
I've let go of the things that made me feel miserable or insecure; now i feel like i'm in a boat in the middle of the ocean, floating, calm; at peace & rest.

Last night was amazing; it was probably one of the summer nights that i can remember right now in which i had no regrets in what i did. I didn't do anything special, i just felt normal, accepted and most importantly loved by my friends.
It was so wondeful seeing a couple of friends which i didn't see for months, thank you guys.

Thank you in all to all of the friends that bring me respect. =)

School is in like; 3 days. Wow. Can't wait actually. It's going to be a hell of a year for sure.
I'm looking forward to it and well; you never know what's going to happen. ;)

Well, What's the Problem?

Hello there,

I've been having such a blast these past few days and hopefully there's more to come.
I'm at my favourite spot. There's a beach over there; where that picture is taken, it's amazing. I don't know why i am so drawn to it, i just love it. In fact one of my dream date is over there. Haha. A walk down at the beach, dim lightning...Right. Let's move along...


Hush now, dearest one;
you know you like it here.
Knowing that you have all the power; freedom to climb all of the trees, jump up in the air.
You wish that the feeling doesn't feel too mutual.
At least you're feeling something instead of the numbness you constantly used to feel.
You're embracing your own company, you love it.
You always do when that happens.
Don't care about the others, they come and go. Just like always. comeandgo!comeandgo!
Why yes, of course, honey.

There is that lighthouse you go to every night.
Sit there quietly; not a single thought or a word comes out, nothing.
Just hearing the sea hitting the rocks.
Then you look up at the sky,
looks like the moon is talking to the stars, they shine brighter when they see you.
You smile softly at them.
Outside; right there it's a little bit chilly, you embrace yourself and you continue to look at the world around; at the future that is yet to come.

It's never over; remember that dearest one.

Silence.

Dear You,

I have no idea what to say. I'm loss for words and I think i lack the inspiration again.

Just so you know, i'm at peace with myself and with everything.
There is nothing left to say, i suppose.

I'm better off without you.

Just so you know; everything you see or hear; it's not always true.
Don't be a fool.

Looking forward to a lot of things....oh life. My life.

Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out.

With Love,

xox S.

Perspective & Inspiration

For Three days i spent most of the time staring at it. I just love it. The sentence, the glittery stuff, Jesus's face; all of it.

That picture was part of the inspiration that i felt.

Ana & Jean; I loved, i really loved your worships. They were the best. You were the ones that really got me into the Spirit of the whole Conference as i felt His presence.

Who knows what's going to happen next?

All i ever want is to grow much more strongly into His presence as i know that he will never ever let me down, he's the only one that i know he can't ever betray me or replace me even though i could be doing that to him. But He's perfect & i'm not.

In my travels I have found that those who keep Heaven in view remain serene
and cheerful in the darkest day. If the glories of Heaven were more real to
us,
if we lived less for material things and more for things eternal and
spiritual,
we would be less easily disturbed by this present life.