Tsk, Tsk, Whoa. Stop.

You really have a nerve to lie to me like that.
Honestly, i don't care to whatever excuses you will come up with.
I don't want to listen.
I've already blocked my ears and blocked you away from me.
Sorry, but you're not a winner.

I always trust my high standards.

You honestly, didn't think i'm stupid? Ha.

exx ooo exx ooo
Steph.

PS: YFC Tonightt :D I love my friends :) <333

My Body Is Not Responding.

So, yesterday and today, i've been feeling like my body is not responding to my happy moods.

Honestly, i feel like crap right now, yet my feelings are *wiiii happy!*.

Okay, i feel sick so, what can i expect? I hate being sick, mostly, i hate being sick and looking forward to the weekend. But i am praying to God so that till Saturday i'll be okay.

I want to go to YFC and on Sunday i want to go christmas shopping :D :( Hrmp. I hope that it will be possible.!

Anyhows, i've been feeling the sudden change in myself, like totally and really. I like the way things are turning out. :)

Still, maybe i am still, waiting for that one little thing.

It might complete me, but who knows?

Only God knows when. :)

It's the Christmas season.....make a wish.
All i want for Christmas is.......? ;)

GoodbyeandGoodnight.

There is always some madness in love.

But there is also always some reason in madness.

Well all go a little mad once in a while, right?

xox steph.

Flash News: I am officially proud of myself.

So, in some past posts i was very angry at myself, at others and many other things.

Today, after this special weekend that i've had, i can say that all my anger and lonliness is so gone.

Why?

I went to this amazing live-in with my amazing friends from YFC (Youths For Christ).

Going to this live-in i've experienced Gods' love, how marvellous he is, how perfect he is, how i started to become happy as i was finding him, and also finding him in others. It was just amazingly perfect.I've also found a handful of friends on the way. :P

Everyone is just very supportive in this group. Just everyone. Katia, my leader. :) She was great, she helped me when i needed help, when i wanted a shoulder to cry on and mostly, when i wanted to talk to someone.

I am now a proud member of this group called YFC.
I've never been so proud of myself, actually i was more of a let down to myself in the past years.
I've truely changed into a better person.
I am Gods' girl. I am Chosen.

He called me and i replied with a simple 'yes' and i let him into my heart to protect me and love me and help me.

God is love.
Love is God.
God is happyness.
Happyness is God.

I now pray to God, for me to keep doing so well at this, being proud of myself that i let him into my heart and preach about him, also live a happy life.

I love you God.
Thank you.

Some pictures from the amazing live-in!

Anon.

There's always a brightside.

There's always the prons and cons.

There's always the good or the evil.

There's always everything or nothing.

There's always hope or hopeless.

There's always love or hate.

There's always happiness or sadness.

There's always the easy or the tough.

Your life is based on every choice you make every single day.

Do you ever feel like you want to be invisible? Or invincible? Desperate for attention or desperate to get away from everything and everyone?

-Wishful thinking.

Goodbye.

thesecret.

The Ones Who Are Mad To Live.

11:11. hello kitty. bookworm. science. sociology. music. late night movies. television series. daydream. faith. hope. psychology. Las Vegas. California. New York. LA. Brendon Urie. Panic at the disco. Eyeliner. Mascara. Blusher. Jewelry. Friends all over the country. Razia's Shadow. Punk. RedBull. Vodka. Malibu. Black. White. Violet. Purple. Vampires. Texting. Chatting. Browsing. Proving you wrong. Challangening. Smiling. Fashion. Retro. Vintage. Smart boys who dress in suits. Hugs. Neck kissing. Single. Love is overrated for now. Happy. Independent. Quiet. Shy at first. Joy. Sensitivity. Spiderman. Badges. Bags. E!News. MTV. Myspace. Modelling. Cuddling. Promises. Promise rings and keychains. Cupcakes. Chocolates. Kinder. Sunsets. Cold weather. Paris. English. Litertature. Poetry. Photography. Graphics. Picture Editing. HTML. Quotes. The 20's. MP4. Hair. Hairdye. Hairspray. Very Forgetful. Kind. Sleepyhead. Moody. Panic. Nervous. Curious. Amused easily. Blessed. Loves Attention.

This is me.

Flash News: I Am Drowning.

All I ever wanted is to be at peace.
I'm struggling, forcing myself to make you proud.
I wonder, i wonder when will be the day where i'll tell you, 'i can't do this anymore.'
Famous last words.

This is hard. Hard to let go and hard to achieve.
I am going to do my best. Oh yes, i promise. I'll try.

And you, stop distracting me before i will tell myself once again, 'I am drowning.'
Then i'll toodle to bed and cry myself to sleep, watching my life falling into pieces and the dreams i once had will start to fade away. Why? Because i wasn't strong enough to save myself and believe in myself.

Dear God, I need help.
I need to stop making mistakes and focus.

idontwanttoloseit.

Ta.
x

Just a Note.

Bid goodbye to the better part of daylight. I felt the come on coming on alright of unfaithful rays, of sad displays of independence. I've not been drinking; I've been worrying the floorboards with wandering weight with fits of figure eights. I'm only barely young; I'm old enough to repeat the same mistakes. I am all other hands those other times each anyway and then. I am so sad to say, like yesterday, a do you remember when - I am pretending otherwise lacking appeal. You never really learned to fake well what you don't feel.


I've done small things that i'm not proud of. Just remember though; i'm better than you and you know it.