I just closed the door, pulled up my hair, stopped the music and started to focus on what I am going to tell you now.
It's been a while since I wrote in this blog that I really hold close to me. Everything you read in here is my life, my experiences; just everything.
I've been lacking inspiration as well as lacking the feeling to write, I’ve been pretty much apathetic.
Motivation is the key to success. Agreed. The things I wanted to do this summer I am doing them; not all of them but still. I’m getting there and I love every minute of it.
Just very happy with my outcomes and with what I have. I don’t want to complain anymore; been there, done that. Having my happiness is much more important than most things that exist in the world.
Xoxo S.
Remember the time when you clung to yourself, you prayed to get there, you prayed for it to be over. You cried and asked yourself, ‘why me?’ The things you said and didn’t mean them made you look pathetic and you know it. You hid them from yourself and from the rest just to look strong, well look how well that turned out for you, yeah? But…wait…look at yourself now. You smile in front of the mirror and believe; believe in the things that you started pulling away from. The forest has vanished, that empty house, the dreams you thought that were fading away; they were just starting before you even knew it.
God loves you enough to get you back onto your feet. I bet He was the one who tried to talk to you back there at the house, remember? Do you? Of course you do. Pain is hard to let go of and just forget. But you’re done now. The reflection of yourself that’s displayed on the mirror is true, you are smiling, and you look good. Keep it up, would you? For me?
You will, I trust you.
You never give up, you always aim higher.
1 comment:
As you know, we have loads in common. Including this post. I sometimes feel that way.. for no reason. I lock myself up in my room, sit on the bed and cry all of my "pains" out.
Sometimes I am also scared, the word is.. scared of what might happen in the very near future, scared of what there is out there..to find me & eventually "kills me".
I would lose myself trying to compete with everybody else, instead of simply be me. But then, I look in the mirror.. as you wrote, then I see the light at the end of the darkest of dark tunnels & try to believe in myself.. but Steph..the mirror lies, it doesn't show what's inside, & continue on feeling bad. Then to feel better, I put on some music with very touching lyrics.. pray to God to help me through, and I succeed.
Sometimes..nowadays, from the day the live-in was over..right away I felt different. First I felt bad, for leaving the friends I made there..then I realized I feel.. much better, much beautiful, much much happy with myself & what I have & from then on, I simply make sure that everyone has the not so good times in his life, the best of times in his life..
Everyone is beautiful, handsome, amazing, perfect in different & sort of unusual ways.
It's amazing how much brighter you feel when you see the brightest smiles on faces..the brightest smile on your face.
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