I saw some baby pictures today.

Hahah, i was so cute. I wish i was still a baby. Everyone loves you when you're a baby.
You'll get most of the attention. Anything.

I've been spacing out a lot lately.
I'm thinking way too much that today i thought my head was going to explode.
I feel really tired, i nearly fell asleep on the bus back home today and i did fall alseep while i was doing my math [o level] homework.
I don't have to do this...i just do.
Pathetic me, i know.
Maybe i just need to talk to somebody and really trust.

List of songs that i've been listening everyday;

Down and Out - The Academy Is...
Skeptics And True Believers - The Academy Is...
Bulls in Brooklyn - The Academy Is...
Seed - The Academy Is...
It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects.
Mad World - Donnie Darko.
Northern Downpour - Panic at the Disco.
The Piano knows something i don't know - Panic at the Disco.
Boys and Girls - The Subways.
Eleanor Rigby - The Beatles.
Time to Pretend - MGMT.
Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner - Fall Out Boy.
Gil Sleeping - The Horrors.
Gloves - The Horrors.
She is the new thing - The Horrors.


Wow...list.

I want to go to a beach for my birthday.....but let's just say i so doubt that.

Time flies...it won't wait for us...no it won't.

So, i was looking at some old stuff i used to have on the internet...
hah wow...it was crazy, i was crazy...i guess..O_o
I wasn't afraid to speak my mind. I said whatever i had to say.
Those were the good old days.

My 17th birthday is in like...8 days....5th May.
Pretty much, my birthday is a big deal for me. I guess it's the only day that i feel noticed and completly loved. I could be wrong...but it's what i feel.
I hope nothing and no one would fuck up this day. It is important. I like this event.

I don't know what i want this birthday... O_o
last year my mum gave me a surpise and i went to England. It was amazing.
This year....i don't know... -shrug- oh well!
Whatever happens, happens i suppose.

Till then,
i'll keep watching The O.C
Haha oh yeah i'm being obsessed with it right now o.o
I love Seth Cohen, he's such a nerd, it's soo cute xD
I'll also open my photo albums...

....oh this week is going to be just interesting.
gotta stay focused (:.

Bye!

Humans break their promises.

Why hello there, it's been long i know.

Blogging now.

I've been smiling.


and i've been...



...me.

I like too many things and get all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anyone except my own confusion.

Secret Love And The Fastest Way To Loneliness.

We're solemn pretty, dressing with all of the town
All, all the town
Turns out I can give what you wanted
Escape from the pain
But that's already made

i live in the numbness now, in the background.

Take me away. I beg you. It's no good.

I hope that you will understand.

Let them lose it.

Once upon a time, or maybe twice.

Hello. Me again.

I like too many things and get all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anyone except my own confusion.
and, i'm on vacation until further notice.

onlynotreally.

The only thing i'm really looking forward to happen in my life at the moment.

Panic at the Disco - 25th March 2008.
<3

--Now she goes and dies in bed.

When there's nothing to burn, set yourself on fire.

Note:
Everything you observe isn't really everything about me.

Later. xox.

Today......sucked.

++++++

Facts about me.

i love photography.
i love googling random photography.
Jac Vanek is my idol.
After her, Hanna Beth.
Panic at the disco are the best band ever.
After them comes: Paramore, The Horrors, Cobra Starship, The Academy Is..., Daft Punk and the list continues.
i love cookies and cupcakes.
i have a thing for buttons, eg. computer keys and mobile buttons. not the clothes buttons.
i can get pretty serious at times.
i tend to be insecure sometimes.
i dream a lot.
I like too many things and get all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop.
i listen to more than 100 songs every day. too much? not to much?
i don't like msn but i love myspace.
my mum is my best friend.
i don't trust anyone. give me a reason if you want me to trust you.
Shit happens. Lyke Z0mG!
i want to be a photographer.
i want to be a web developer.
i hate conceit bitches.
i am single and i like it.
i'm a little scared of being committed to someone.
i don't complain much.
i love doing stuff on my own.
i love thinking on my own.
Ready to face me?
i don't bite seriously.
i'll be your fucking puppet. (:

Ayy Kiddos, Hello.

So i guess i decided to create this blog thing for several reasons. One of my reasons is that on myspace, hi5, buzznet or any of that type of websites are not good enough to post blogs or whatever you call them.

This blog crap is going to be my rambling of the day/month/year. Haha i don't know how often i'm going to keep this updated but if it will be a success i guess i will update it more often.
O_o rambling started? guess so.

Do not read but observe.

Words could mean anything. Words are words. No one can change words. Don't try, you'll fail. Everything that goes out of that little/big thing that is found below your nose means everything. I'm dying to meet someone who is mute, no, i'm so not against them or anything. I'm just curious how they cope with their everyday life.

I guess if you're a quiet person, writing is your best way to vent. Congratulations.

You crave for attention yet you want to stay hidden, how can such thing happen?

You want friends, you starve for them yet you want to be alone, what the hell is wrong with you?

You're desperate, depressed and any other bad word that describes how awful a person can be, why?

You ask yourself what's there missing. You think that those are just rhetorical questions and you go like, "oh well, fuck it." You're totally wrong. You have to force yourself to get the answers. Stop being pathetic and get to work. No one is going to help you, everyone is bitch. Grow up. Open your fucking mind.