Where The City Meets The Sea.

I'm quite surpised how things are turning out.
Sometimes i miss the very old days. But i can't really complain right now.
I have some awesome best friends :D

Also..

i've been seeing green.

Give me something to believe.

Cause I am living just to breathe.

I swear i never meant for this.

The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!”

Oh it's been so long.

Summer is gone, bye bye summer. I won't miss you.
...i'm lying. I will miss some parts of you.
I'm going to miss the days i spent sleeping till ten o'clock in the morning.
& sleeping late, at like three o'clock in the moring, i'm still going to sleep.
Hanging out to random places with my friends, especially the beach or the pool.

I won't miss the heat. Oh no. I hate it.
I'm ready to welcome Winter :)
I love winter <3.

Yep. yep. I do.

School started. Work started again. School, Hah. I'm not going into that yet.

I just want everything to be different.

I like change, sometimes it's good.

I hate routines, i like being different.

Let's just have the time of our lives.
<3

This is recent;

You Asked For It.

Everyone is a let down.
Depends on how far they go.

All is a lie.
Lies, lies, lies.

All wear a mask to hide whoever they are.
Truth is, they don't know either.

Uninspired. Undecided.

Trust is a big thing and as time goes by it's getting even harder for me to trust.

Nobody loves you.

Cut.Cut.Cut.


thesecret.
themission.

I do things i am not proud of.
Failure is the best option.
Getaway.

Lover i don't have to Love.

You are the least of my problems.

ashotofsteph is dead.

alongtimeagoweusedtobefriends.
ididntmissyouatall.

I just can't stop listening to The Academy Is...

4 days till my bday! xD

I had a nice day today, with some friends :)

thanks guys.

i don't know if you'll see this but yeah...

I saw some baby pictures today.

Hahah, i was so cute. I wish i was still a baby. Everyone loves you when you're a baby.
You'll get most of the attention. Anything.

I've been spacing out a lot lately.
I'm thinking way too much that today i thought my head was going to explode.
I feel really tired, i nearly fell asleep on the bus back home today and i did fall alseep while i was doing my math [o level] homework.
I don't have to do this...i just do.
Pathetic me, i know.
Maybe i just need to talk to somebody and really trust.

List of songs that i've been listening everyday;

Down and Out - The Academy Is...
Skeptics And True Believers - The Academy Is...
Bulls in Brooklyn - The Academy Is...
Seed - The Academy Is...
It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects.
Mad World - Donnie Darko.
Northern Downpour - Panic at the Disco.
The Piano knows something i don't know - Panic at the Disco.
Boys and Girls - The Subways.
Eleanor Rigby - The Beatles.
Time to Pretend - MGMT.
Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner - Fall Out Boy.
Gil Sleeping - The Horrors.
Gloves - The Horrors.
She is the new thing - The Horrors.


Wow...list.

I want to go to a beach for my birthday.....but let's just say i so doubt that.

Time flies...it won't wait for us...no it won't.

So, i was looking at some old stuff i used to have on the internet...
hah wow...it was crazy, i was crazy...i guess..O_o
I wasn't afraid to speak my mind. I said whatever i had to say.
Those were the good old days.

My 17th birthday is in like...8 days....5th May.
Pretty much, my birthday is a big deal for me. I guess it's the only day that i feel noticed and completly loved. I could be wrong...but it's what i feel.
I hope nothing and no one would fuck up this day. It is important. I like this event.

I don't know what i want this birthday... O_o
last year my mum gave me a surpise and i went to England. It was amazing.
This year....i don't know... -shrug- oh well!
Whatever happens, happens i suppose.

Till then,
i'll keep watching The O.C
Haha oh yeah i'm being obsessed with it right now o.o
I love Seth Cohen, he's such a nerd, it's soo cute xD
I'll also open my photo albums...

....oh this week is going to be just interesting.
gotta stay focused (:.

Bye!

Humans break their promises.

Why hello there, it's been long i know.

Blogging now.

I've been smiling.


and i've been...



...me.

I like too many things and get all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anyone except my own confusion.